Now I See

Recently my husband was faced with a health issue and the doctor advised us to go to St. Luke’s emergency room and let us know that they had called St. Luke’s ER and informed them that we were on our way. As instructed, we drove to the campus of hospitals off of 19th Street and turned into the emergency room. We spent several hours in the emergency room and subsequently Dan was admitted to the hospital for back surgery. The next morning I drove back to St. Luke’s and pulled up in front of the hospital. Imagine my surprise when I pulled up to St. Luke’s and realized that this was not the hospital where Dan and I had spent the previous day. I turned the corner and found the emergency room that we did go to and lo and behold it was St. Joseph’s hospital.

Even in the face of this information, I still couldn’t believe we could’ve made such a mistake. I thought that perhaps St. Luke’s was adjacent to this entrance, etc. I really didn’t believe he was actually in St. Joseph’s until I walked in the hospital and saw on the wall right next to the emergency room the name St. Joseph Hospital. And, as I made my way to Dan’s room I now saw the name of St. Joseph everywhere, including on the menu that I had ordered Dan’s dinner off of the night before. How could I be so blind?

It got me to thinking about how powerful belief systems are. We believed we went to St. Luke’s, and even though there was a multitude of evidence surrounding us with information to the contrary, we didn’t even see it. And, even after faced with evidence the following day, it was still incredulous to me that I could have been in St. Joseph rather than St. Luke’s. It took me a several minutes and about 5 signs for me to finally believe it. Wow, it is astonishing how blind I can be when my mind has a pre-conceived notion.

What a good anecdote for life. We see what we want to see. And sometimes what we believe can shape what we see. There are many references in the Bible about being blind both literally and figuratively and it only through the belief of Jesus that our sight is restored. One such story is that of Saul in Acts 9. Saul was set to persecute Jesus and then after meeting Jesus he was blinded for three days until Jesus restored his sight:

Then Ananias went to the house and entered it. Placing his hands on Saul, he said, “Brother Saul, the Lord—Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you were coming here—has sent me so that you may see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit.” 18 Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptized, 19 and after taking some food, he regained his strength…At once he began to preach in the synagogues that Jesus is the Son of God.” Acts 9: 17, 20.

In John 9: 39 Jesus said, "For judgment I came into this world, so that those who do not see may see, and that those who see may become blind."

The incident, although benign, made me take notice of how easy it is to be “blind” and not see what might be right in front of me simply because I don’t expect to see it, don’t want to see it, or am afraid to see it. Truly, I am grateful for God’s grace and forgiveness for I can be so blind! How true rings the famous verse: “Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me, I once was lost but now am found, was blind but now I see.”

Kelley Evans

No comments (Add your own)

Add a New Comment


Comment Guidelines: No HTML is allowed. Off-topic or inappropriate comments will be edited or deleted. Thanks.